First Post

Here it is, my first blog post. Ever.

In this blog I will talk about my ongoing two year journey through the horrible weirdness that is Depersonalization and Derealization Disorder (DPDR). I suffer mostly from the derealization aspect, but I think DP and DR are so intertwined that it’s hard to make a real distinction, hence the name of the disorder.

I have about ten years of experience with generalized anxiety (GAD), four years of experience with panic attacks, and unfortunately over two years of experience with currently only mostly chronic DPDR.

In my first real post I will give an overview on DPDR and its links to anxiety and OCD, for beginners.

Note that, as a scientist (although not in the field of psychology), I will only use what I think are scientifically verified results. This is difficult since there is so so much misinformation about both anxiety and DPDR and their connection, as well as a general lack of high quality research literature to learn from. Additionally, I will use my own experiences with different forms of therapy and medication to show you what I think is the best way of dealing with this terrible, horrible, unbelievably torturous disease…

The most important thing to note in my first blog is that you should not worry, since you can get through this, and because worrying is what keeps DPDR going. It changes many things, both thoughts and emotions, but your actual sense of reality will never ‘fall apart’ or ‘dissolve’ like you fear. The second most important thing is that I know what you are going through, and how it very likely is the most difficult, scary, painful thing that you will EVER face in life. But, believe me, it can and will get better, no matter how deep you think you are.

See you next post,

Cedric